unspoken words bleeding through
like an open wound, oozing substance
i yearn for you like a greedy animal
craving the loving touch of an absent owner
paralyzed by the thought of returning home

insatiable hunger taking over
a primitive need, barbaric, violent
two souls intertwined, stuck in the web of a cold universe
unwilling to entertain their grotesque dance

this fervent desire, like a strangled sound
contours the longing of a fragmented heart
cavorting with the concept of becoming whole

i can feel my arteries twisting
with every whisper you throw my way
leaving me breathless, wanting
yearning for your canines buried deep within my flesh

eat me alive, tear the meat from my bones, brutal, genuine
feel my marrow down your throat, my blood coating your mouth
does it suffice? is it enough?

mourning something that hasn't died yet
i wake up nearing dusk thinking about you
doomed from the start, reluctant to let go
of the idyllic world i built inside my head
where we're together, where i get closure
and i don't grieve what we could've been

i've got to let go, for my sake
but i can't bear the thought of living without you
a passive participant in this foolish charade
still, so impactful, so significant
i've never been a quitter
how could i possibly let you go?

i love you like i've never loved anyone,
miss you like the sunflower misses the sun
i worship you foolishly
my god, distant, unreachable, warm, bright
your word is my religion, the only thing that feels real
selfless devotion, yet, catatonic

you're not the solution, i'm aware
i don't expect you to be, i don't expect you to fix it
still, i wonder, how perfect would it be
how wonderful, to have you, to love you properly
like the moon is to the earth
like the rain is to the soil

it's marked me deeply, your presence, haunting me
it's never quite enough
starving, i can't get enough of you
satiate me, make me whole
i need to carve your heart out, i need to see it beating
convince me this is real, convince me you feel the same

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